JH asks: Why have I had mental illness, violence and sexual abuse in my life, and especially why was I sexually molested by my mother as a baby and young girl until I was taken away from her?
God: This is a question that no one should ever have to ask. I gifted living beings the honour of a free will – but they did not respect it. Mankind wants freedom to do as he/she wills, demanding that I give him power to overcome weakness, but he will not trust that I made him strong. So he steals power from others.
You were raised to be nice to others, yet others were not always nice to you. So what does nice or normal even mean? My greatest gift to man is the gift of life. It is his choice what to do with that life. Souls with lower level incarnations do not perceive that their hardships are vital lessons to teach them something; compassion, strength, respect, faith, strong will. They resent their perceived hardship and in anger, make someone else pay for what was done to them.
But how accurate is the mind’s picture of the long ago past? Does it remember the truth, or what it believes is the truth? Others around them will project their own issues and fears onto the situation, according to their own perception. It is a heartbreaking experience to NOT be protected by your own mother. Yet she is still only the physical vessel from which I gave you life. And if for some reason you needed to be raised by someone else, then a strong situation must happen to force you onto a safer path. And is not mental illness only the way the traumatized mind seeks to resolve what has happened around it? Therefore is it an illness, or merely a coping mechanism to handle hardship in a way that does not further damage the delicate mind? Be kind to yourself in this regard, you were not ill, you were seeking a way through that would allow you to survive and make sense of the senseless.
You all seek to understand WHY something bad has happened to you. You believe that if you can understand it, then you can accept it and let it go. But I say to you, the greatest act of faith is just to let it go. How can there truly be an answer as to why a mother would abuse her own child? Only a mother who was so confused by her own past pain could project it outward and act it out on her own child. It may have been the only thing that allowed her to keep the slightest grip on her sanity. This acting out is often the only way a mind can make peace with what happened. But for the child to ask why this happened is like the sand on the beach asking why the waves pound upon it time after time after time; it’s simply because they do. Wherever there is power, it will be abused. Wherever there is empowerment, it will create miracles.
People ask why do I not take their suffering from them? They cannot understand that since I did not create suffering that I cannot take it from them. Mankind is the author of the suffering on your planet for suffering does not exist in heaven. Once I give you the gift of life I will listen to your prayers to help you see things in another way, to see that your life itself is the gift yet it may not look the way you’d imagined it would. When another appears to abuse you, they are acting out their suffering on you, but still they are not trying to hurt you, they are in their own private hell and project their face onto yours. And even if they physically hurt your body, they do not hurt you, for nothing can hurt the depth and strength of the soul that I breathed life into for you.
Yet only understand the enormous gift of compassion, kindness, humility, integrity, respect that you would learn from a life of having to instil these qualities in yourself. How much stronger is the one who builds strength from the inside and does not need external approval? How much more love do they have to give, because they know all too well how it feels to do without it?
What I hope for you is to not spend a lifetime in a negative state that needn’t have held any power over you. The true question is not why? – (why did this happen?) but how? – (how do I get past this?).
There is an urge that will motivate one to commit an act – a reason behind the behaviour that others won’t understand. Yet there is never an explanation that will adequately explain why to the receiver. If you continue to keep your eyes upon me, focus on spirit and light, you will see that your physical body is not real, what seems to happen to you only happens to it. For without your soul to drive it, your body is nothing. The light of your soul is real, therefore know that nothing can touch you - not even death. Pray that I will help you to see that your body is not real, only your mind’s perception of it. Pray that I will help you to see that what happened to your body is not real, only your mind’s perception of it. For the finest steel is forged in the hottest fire, and the hottest fire for you, is pain. It refines you and makes you stainless. Be proud of who you are, and what you have risen from, but be not that. Be spirit.
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