IT OFTEN FEELS THAT I PAY A VERY HIGH PRICE FOR MY LIFE

Channeling #24

Question: I feel empty and hollow and it is a vulnerable and angry place. It often feels that I am paying a very high price for my life.

GOD:  During these times take yourself in to the depth of that stored despair and remember that it is just that - storage. And remember also that it is your ego’s closet, not yours. Your ego has posted your name on the door, it looks like your stuff, but this is a lie aimed at keeping you from finding your truth and jumping into the light and healing. Like cleaning out your closet – you examine each scrap of evidence to determine if it has fulfilled its value to you and if it is time to let it go. But you cannot see that the evidence itself is merely a ploy to distract you from true healing. The more time you spend on this useless evidence, the more your ego likes it.

You must not weep over each article or feel resentment or remorse. You need only calmly determine its value as a lesson to you and discard it.  In this I mean to give it up, not to place it somewhere for safe keeping in case you choose to dig it up and use it to punish yourself yet again.  It may be familiar and you no longer use it, yet still do you have difficulty letting go. This belief in a need for an external identity is a misperception in humans. It takes courage to let go of what you think defines you.

You have chosen to believe that you are losing something instead of seeing that your soul has decided to pull up anchor and sail to a more beautiful harbor. I have created many beautiful inner harbors within you and I know that you long to sail there. You need not struggle to do this – for only in allowing the winds of God and the currents of Destiny to take you will you reach your true destination.

You felt as if many of the ports you sailed into had robbed you and left you emotionally bankrupt. You could not see that you are the jewel and what you have can never stolen, but only polished and made more precious. And have I not always deposited more into your grace bank account? Your overdraft with me is limitless, yet you hoard your perceived meagre funds in fear of a barren time. There will not be one; believe in me and surrender, in every minute if need be, for I am providing you with all that you require in this lifetime.