WHAT CAUSED MY ANGER AND DISILLUSIONMENT ABOUT RELATIONSHIP?

Channeling #23

Question:

I am angry and disillusioned about relationship. I’ve tried to be a good person and feel that I should deserve a wonderful relationship.  What happened to cause this mistrust?

GOD:

Deep in the memory files of Family History lies the core belief that the young girls are the property of the authority figures. Instead of protecting and cherishing the young girl, she was traumatized by this dangerous place and left frightened and mistrustful. She wanted to return home, only was too weak for the journey and truly – where was home? It was no place that she had known!  No matter which path she chose, there was no one there to provide support and safety or to provide illumination from her darkness.

How can one trust when the leaders and caregivers do not demonstrate what it looks like? Trust must not just be earned, first it must be learned.

When a soul chooses a very difficult incarnation it is evidence that a healer is being moulded and great care must be taken to not misinterpret what surrounding events unfold. It is not personal, it is the deepest form of schooling, it is the phoenix rising from the ashes if you would seek to find the jewel and not believe that the ashes are your life.

Summon your spirit home through candlelight rituals and seek atonement, for many are the things that have been held against me and an innocent child.  Cast out these memories. Write them on paper and burn them as they have burned you.  There can be no softness in this regard as you must bring death to this haunting illusion that portrayed something permanent was done to you. The only thing that is permanent is my Love and your soul.

When you look back, this illusion only causes pain - therefore only look forward to let it die.

Something did happen and it was a lesson to be learned.  It appeared something was done to your body, but nothing to YOU.  This will be over once you lay it to rest on the altar of forgetfulness that resides within your heart.  This altar may not be approached idly, offhandedly, or irreverently but only with forgiveness, humility and complete surrender. 

This is the hardest thing for my children to do yet only when you do this, can my God part of you step in and make your life flow easily.

There is a door to my heart, yet the name on the door is YOURS!

When you trust me - you will trust yourself and this is how trust is learned. Do this, and your relationship with yourself will heal. Do this and all of your relationships will be wonderful ones.