HOW DOES ONE MEASURE SUCCESS?

C.H. asks: How does one measure success – in career, life, relationship?

GOD:

Your question is one that every human should ask for so many of you are not happy. So many of you feel incomplete, like a large puzzle that you struggle to fill in and finish, but then you realize that one piece is missing! What is even sadder is that humans measure their self-perceived value and happiness according to the level of success they think they have. This is because humans are always seeking happiness and have equated happiness at being successful at something. Whatever you are successful at is a demonstration of one of the many gifts that I have given you. That missing piece you look everywhere for is right in the palm of my hand, always extending itself but you turned your back as you do not trust love. You are afraid to take it for fear that you would be under my control. But this belief is an illusion for you are an extension of me, you share my abilities but to a lesser degree simply because you are bound by the rules and restrictions of a physical body. The only thing you truly control is your current thought so you can choose to learn through joy or through pain. But you would rather learn through pain for your ego mind has told you that this is normal, this is the world. But it is not, it is the illusion you made for yourself.

I designed mankind to be my physical learning and feedback mechanism as through you I can touch and feel, and explore. Where you get yourself into trouble is that your ego steps in and takes you over, viewing the God part of you as the enemy who would take away your control. But deeply connecting to me does not rob you of your control, it makes you all powerful with the faith to move mountains. It gives you the clarity and wisdom to see that the truth of who you are, which is the Observer who watches you running around in circles, driven into craziness, despair, guilt, shame, judgment, confusion, overwhelm and ultimately – separation. The ego wants this. The more it strangles your mind, the more you believe the God voice within to be a threat to your freedom. Yet you were always free right from the moment I created you. Through your hurt and fragility you believed that you needed a bodyguard to keep intimacy away, for intimacy would cause you pain. Truly intimacy with me, your true self, eliminates pain for then you see your world as it really is – a bearer of gifts ready to respond to your prayers. Yet many of you do not even have the faith of the tiny mustard seed which does not judge that it must grow into a tiny plant, but simply grows according to the holographic map I have laid out for it, trusting the process with no judgment or resistance. And this is the plan that I have for you, for your unique part on this earth.

The only question you need ask is “What does it take to break through the chains of my frightened ego mind and live through the truth of my God self?”  For that – is true Success!

Why would I say this? I say this for when many of you ask about what would make you successful, what you are really asking is, “What would make me happy? Would success at something make me happy, make me feel good enough or as good as everyone else? What would bring me joy, love, peace, connection?” And it is so very simple you keep missing it. The ego has you believe that you need to DO something or GET something or HAVE something in order to be a success.  But that is its strategy to keep you chasing your tail and never finding the truth. For I made you an empowered Light Being with gifts that would bring you and others joy and there is nothing more successful than that. But you would rather listen to the voice of the ego and agree that you are small.

So there IS no answer to your question for you do not ask the right question. When you function within your God Self, in fact you already ARE all of those wonderful things. They never left you and you were never left, you just thought you were and began acting accordingly. But this is your illusion and it is a Global one, like mass hypnosis. I cannot take this illusion from you, as I did not create it, you did. But you can ask for my help in showing you that the ego world is not real – and I do this gladly.

It is not arrogant for you to say, “Truly I am loved and I have great gifts and powers,” for I made you so. It is arrogant to say that you are not great for then is your crazy ego mind arguing with the will of God and that is arrogance.

I did not make you small, I made you great. In realizing the true potential I have given you, you are already successful.

WHY DO PEOPLE HATE?

Channeling #42

H.S. asks : Why do people hate?

GOD: Deep in the recesses of man’s mind lies the spark of a divine truth that reminds you that you are an extension of Me. You have covered over this magical garden with myths, stories and illusions to prove that you are not loved. This is craziness – because you know deep within that you ARE love, yet continue to look for it from the world outside.

When will you see that this desperate search is a ploy of the ego mind, the crazy mind, and the tortured mind – to keep you from the truth? In this quest that offers no prize, you become angry; angry that life has not given you what you want, angry that you don’t have acceptance and approval from others. Yet you do not ask for what you want, you are mad at yourselves and do not accept yourselves. You continue to make your troubles about what is going on outside, yet truly are at war within and cannot see it.

You do not hate as you ARE love and love cannot hate; only your EGO is capable of hate. Hate is not the opposite of love, for love has no opposite. Love stands alone. Hate is the absence of love, the absence of self-love.  As long as you seek to GET love you will perceive that you have it not, and you will be angry. Love cannot be gotten from an outside source, love must be channelled through you, but a channel must be open at both ends as one must receive if one is to give. If you do not believe that you are worthy to receive love, you will close your inflowing channel and the vicious illusion of needing love and the never-ending cycle of torture continues.

You choose to condemn your vulnerable feelings, judging them to be a weakness instead of a strength learned from your valuable lessons. You want to hate those who do not love you as you would want, but you do not love yourself, so how then can you show your brother the face of love when you know not its countenance?

You say that you will cease your hatred when someone loves you, but if you all wait for a demonstration of love, then will there never be one. The law of magnetic attraction sends you what you focus on. If you seek love’s absence, you are the author of your own lack and the ego will find evidence to prove that this is true.

You must ask, “Who can I love?”  Not, “Who will love me?”  Love comes on the wings of the Dove, the symbol of the divine, the unconditional, and peace and freedom. Hate enslaves and love gives flight, hate burns and love illuminates, hate mutates and love transforms, hate contracts and love expands, hate binds and love frees, hate punishes and love forgives. I did not program hate into your tissue, only love. The ego seeks to cover over that precious jewel and uses your illusionary wounds to defend it. Every piece of information that it gathers for you, seeks to prove that you do not already have that for which you seek.

I OFTEN FEAR MY FUTURE, PERHAPS I DO NOT SEE MYSELF CLEARLY

Channeling #38

Question:

I often fear my future; perhaps I do not see myself clearly.

GOD:

If only mankind could see himself as clearly as I see him. When you pull yourself up into the heavenly realms, it is easy to look down and see the magnificent picture. Yet you struggle with what you think is reality, unaware that you are stuck in an illusion that only looks real because you are in the middle of it. If you were centered in your soul realm, you could raise your vision and see that this is NOT personal, but schooling.

The realm of enchantment is the realm you were born into. It appeared lost for a time but for a good reason. Only in the absence of magic surrounding you, will you struggle and learn to create your own inner realm of mystical play. As deep as you are willing to go is as deep as I am willing to take you.  Only when you relinquish control to me, will the true “fall into love” commence. You have stood on the edge of this apparent abyss, your inner wall – mistaking the darkness for isolation and danger. You had not the patience to wait and see that the blinding sun was just below the horizon, waiting to burst forth and fill your life with light.  The darkness you see is but your own shadow because you stand with your back to the light. You choose not to risk turning around and facing that light that would illuminate every aspect of you. Thus you are not able to see your potential. You fear anger, blame and judgement far less than you fear love. For the light of love that I would shine on you will display your emotional nakedness – the guilty place where your ego would tell you that you are not good enough, that you will be rejected. But I tell you this. You will not fall to your death by turning around and facing this beautiful light that is my gift to you. You will only fall into the love that I have held for you for so long.

Have no fear for your future, for I have already written the script of your life and I’ve held it in my hands since before you were born and it will be taken care of for you. You are an extension of me, an extension of life and love and my biggest regret is that you continue to push it away from you. When I say come as a child to enter Heaven, I do not say that children are favoured. I mean that when your love and joy comes from innocence and expectation of good things – you are already in Heaven. If you are willing as a child to trust me and have faith, you will love and laugh through the rest of your life, for what I would gift to you delivers the best that is always “yet to come.”

HOW CAN I DEAL LESS PAINLESSLY WITH MEN IN RELATIONSHIPS?

Channeling #36

A Woman’s Question:

How can I deal less painlessly with men in relationship?

GOD:

God Says, “View them as spirit beings without gender and have no attachment to outcome.” You can offer love, you can give love but until someone asks for you and for your time exclusively, do not look at men in order to choose the one you think is yours.   Most important to be personally happy and learn ways to extend love to many people.  You must accept this so that you do not seek only for that one special one. You must be that special one before he can recognize you.

Life need not be hard but time needs to be spent reflecting on which aspects matter most.  Maintain a place of self-containment and mystery but work on being engaging to all.  Allow them to seek you, be drawn out and in the place of stillness allow my voice to speak.  What others want from or wish for you is of no consequence, only listen and seek for the grains of truth about yourself.  Throughout your life you have lived in fear of what others thought and for what gain? It is not that they care for you as much as they seek to gain love and enjoy the feel of importance.   But if you do not align with them and allow their words to change your life’s course, then of what importance are they?   Give to yourself but make contributions to all.  Love yourself while clearly demonstrating this to everyone encountered in daily life and especially those who would try to exert influence.  Build a strong inner male core for it is his task to protect and serve in a way that best serves your feminine Goddess.  Allow her to be gloriously fragile and mysterious, she need not explain herself to anyone nor change her course for anyone.  Being a reference point for the White Brotherhood I have placed upon you a very high value.  Be aware of who is being drawn, but take time to carefully decide, for your own sake.

TELL ME ABOUT UNCONDITIONAL LOVE

Channeling #35

Question:

Tell me about unconditional love.

GOD:

Unconditional love is a love that has no strings or price tag attached, and seeks to extend only joy to others.  It is a blessed and rare thing.  Everyone knows what unconditional love is and deeply desires it, but being lazy and ego based seldom achieve it.  Everyone wishes to GET or receive it, but does not wish to have it or GIVE it away.  How difficult is it to always watch for an opportunity to say, “How can I love you?”  In this picture ego says its illusionary needs will not be met.  Give with no expectation of receiving.  The less is sought in return, the more will be given. This is how God’s bank account works.  It is not a savings account, where love is saved for a special one or time therefore no withdrawals are made without first checking for possible dividends.  What can I GET from you?  It is not a “chequing” account, where you “check” out the potential of getting something in return before deciding to give love.  This Grace Bank Account works in reverse to what you have known or practised.

The more you withdraw and give away, the more God deposits into your account. Unconditional love is the Universal glue, yet its silken strands do not stick nor bind another to us like a fly trapped in a spider’s web.  Instead it slips through and permeates everything while weaving a story of hope, healing and peace.

It is desperately sought as you look in the nooks of another’s kind words or crannies of every promise made.  You hope that on another’s wings, love will fly into your arms.  Upon learning to stretch your wings extending them to the wounded self within, forgiveness will begin, wings will grow and flow of love begins.  Being in a state of love is but being open to dwell in a truth of what you are.  Stand upon the sacred ground where God can create the miracles sought.

Many things must happen before you can stand in this place.  Ego must be caught and gentled; love does not threaten or beat anyone into submission.  Why would you do this to someone while wishing for the dream of Love?  When living an illusion, love becomes an illusion.  Cobwebs must be swept away while ego’s true pain and dark agendas must surface and be captured, examined, forgiven and transformed.  During this transformation a matrix through which love can awaken is created.  As long as man seeks to get love, he will never see love is who he is.  Love has no opinions, ideas, masks or awareness of what it is, which is why it has nothing to defend and everything to extend.  Love is the face of truth.  Love flows from your wound and is the pivotal point of development.  Healing of this vulnerable place is the reason for being here.

WHY IS MY LIFE SO HARD?

Channeling #34

QUESTION:

Why is life so hard?

GOD:

The hard life is one that is undesirable, yet although unwanted it is the one most people choose. You think you would never choose this; yet it is the life that you would attract. You re-create it for yourself time and time again. When will you stop? Must heaven and earth stand still for you as a testimony that I acknowledge you? When will you leap off Samsara’s treadmill and pause for your Holy Instant? When will your gaze be humble enough to look down and see that the treadmill appears to move only because you will not stop running?

Rest, pause and take in the wonder all around you. Observe the glorious sights I have created to be seen like a master chef setting out endless delectable delicacies on a banquet table. Sadly through insecurities and feelings of unworthiness you assumed this table was set for someone else. Yet do I not tell you time and again that there IS no one else? There is no one but you. Are not the sons and daughters of the King and Queen royalty by decree of their birth? And are not you the sons and daughters of a King? You do not ask for too much, nay you ask for too little.

I beseech you not to stand in the beggars’ line, holding your hands out for the crumbs you hope to receive. Instead, open your hands and remember my parable of the loaves and fishes. Did you really think that this lesson was about food? Hold your hands out with the faith and the power of love and see that I would forever fill your hands with gifts. Share them with all who are less fortunate because they have forgotten the truth of what they are, a Child of Divinity.

You have not - because you ask not and you ask not out of fear of being beholden to me. Have I not told you that my love carries no price or debt to repay? Yet you spend your life living in this useless guilt rather than surrendering and letting love flow freely through and extending it to others. It is not too late, it is never too late. Ask what you wish of me.  I give you an easy life, if you would but take it.

ADVICE ON RELATIONSHIP WITH THE MALE ASPECT?

CHANNELING #33

Question:

Advice on relationship with the male aspect?

  

GOD:  You have made clear the desires of your heart. Now, step back into the softness of your feminine and let the male energy fulfill his role as the initiator.  You cannot take the first step for him, as he is the hunter.  Both the male and the female energies deserve to be fulfilled and what I offer them in this life - is love.  But you often choose to see something else when your brother offers it to. For you would see it tainted with your past pain.

You and your brother have the same desire to join, but you complicate it with so much mindless fear and diversion, that you no longer recognize that your wishes are the same. You struggle to gain control of your world with your mind, to dissect, box and hide away the vulnerable areas that you think are being threatened. The ego would defend them and thus would have you feel invincible.  You think you are powerful because of your thoughts.

You are not powerful from this thinking mind, as this is the construct of the ego. You are powerful in your God mind.  The God mind is but a receiver and what you think has no meaning, what you want has no meaning and even what you fear has no meaning. That is the beauty of this, thus is your life without meaning and thus your liberation begins here, from the place of NO MIND.  In the place of NO MIND it becomes easier to see that your brother is not the opposite sex from you and therefore different and separate, but he is an extension of the same part of me that you are, a spirit being not to be feared but to be joined with.

A meaningless life is not a useless life; a meaningless life is an ego-less life that is free of judgments and thoughts of separation.  It is time to put away your fear-based thought system. Your ego mind does not rule THE world, it rules YOUR world. Only when the heart rules your mind and my spirit rules your heart, is your world safe and at peace, for the voice of the ego is quieted. The love that you judge to be lacking from others is but the love you do not give. The ego would not have you realize this for it would change the face of your relationships if you were to step into Heaven.

WHAT IS INNOCENCE?

Channeling #32

Question:

What is innocence?

GOD:

Innocence is lightness of being where there is an attachment place for wings.  It is an inevitable meeting place of Divine Force and Human Frailty.  For only from this humble place can feelings of greatness begin to be felt without becoming arrogant.  Arrogance is a state of mind not thinking, “I am more than good enough.”  But rather, “I am NOT good enough.”

How could God be insane enough to judge it or any creations as lacking in any way?  Why would greatness extend itself only to be cut down?  How arrogant are we to think God’s creations are inadequate?

This type of thinking has no place in me, but only resides in your fear-based mind.  A fearful mind is an ego mind; that so desperately wants to keep innocence out of sight that it projects those visions outward to appear in puppies or babies.  Therefore when viewing them you would say, “There lies the desired innocence I seek and my salvation.”

The mind that wants death for you is the mind that must not let you remember your innocence, and must not allow you to see that God never forgot you.  Only you have forgotten me by forgetting your divinity. Only through remembering this is your innocence regained.  It was never a case of your feeling guilty because you had lost your innocence, because you were never guilty in the first place. Never think for an instant that your ego would have you realize this.

Here must begin the first level of forgiveness where the Son of God forgives himself for forgetting me, and for forgetting his true nature. Then must the Son forgive himself for believing that I would punish him for forgetting. I never lost sight of you, you lost sight of me. For I was always there knocking gently at the door of your heart, waiting for you to open that door and bid me to enter; not to a godless place, but to a place where I was but forgotten. The remembering of this place is the remembering of your innocence, remembering the mind that is seen from the heart, and remembering that you never truly left this home, but only dreamt you did.

WHO AM I AND WHAT SHOULD I BE DOING. I'M NOT FULFILLED.

Channeling #31

Michael: “Who am I and what should I be doing? I am not fulfilled.”

GOD:

Who taught you that what should be done with life is a “should” and that one IS what they DO?  You learn that you must make a living but are not taught that you can do this through joyfully doing that which you would do for nothing. Parents fail to teach you in trusting that the universe puts a high value on you and will pay for the passion you hold in the valuable learned attributes from your childhood. Parents are your greatest teachers and you are often intensely and painfully taught through the paradigms of those who raised you. The older generations believe that when a child surpasses the fears of the parents, it builds character and “purifies” the soul. But I say truthfully, that when the child transcends the belief that their parent’s fears were ever real, then have they surpassed the previous generation.

I have been waiting for the “qualifier” to your question Michael and when it has not come I see a picture of someone who struggles with what he “should” write, how “should” he phrase the question? What is behind this word – should and where is it written that man SHOULD do anything? Who do you try to please, and whose anger do you seek to deflect, through not making a mistake?

In this world of conformity and other’s expectations, man has been conditioned to never ask, “What do I want?”  This question would not support the tribal mind that must dilute, cloud and squash individuality in order to preserve sustainability and control.  This lack of individuality causes man to forget individual needs and desires. The one must be sacrificed for the group. Why be so frightened and soul-robbed that you have no thoughts of what you desire for fear of offending others and having them withdraw their love? For in doing this, the only person you do offend, is yourself.

What tasks brought you rewarding feelings of love, yet you completed them well and without effort?  What ability did you judge irrelevant since you could accomplish it so easily at a highly competent level, you assumed everyone could do it – so it wasn’t special?  What was cast aside as a result of someone else’s disapproval?  Many humans appear to live in one world and perform in another.  Yet all must work with their own unique set of gifts, offering them to the universe for compensation.

Some people are the talent and others are the talent that must work with them - shaping, structuring and supporting artistic talents into logical realms for universal compensation.  It is like being a bridge between two worlds and you are a bridge.  Your structure bridges the gap between analytical and artistic and supports the realm of potential between them.  Someone must have the ability to map out a specific course and cost for the artistic elements to escape the void and be brought forth into reality. Creative ideas will flow from others and you are charged with ensuring there containment and survival. Align yourself with those whose vision creates your dreams, and then be the bridge to support that into reality.

WHY ARE WE AFRAID TO RELEASE FEAR?

Channeling #30

Question:

Why are we afraid to release fear?

GOD:

How frightening would it be to live in a place with ‘no ego mind’, pure love and non-judgement?

How often do we eat a sweet treat and instead of relishing the flavour and giving thanks for small indulgences we turn it into a fear:  punishment, becoming sick or gaining weight.  Thus the body-mind becomes conditioned to anticipate delicious things in life have high price tags like guilt. This in turn creates fear of other’s ulterior motives thereby allowing them to ruin your life.

One must see both sides only for an instant to understand it is not what an individual does but the prayerful frame of mind with which things are done that truly matters to create a desired outcome.  Thus if things are done with a reverent prayerful attitude, there is no need for concern about what is being done as the Holy Spirit will choose for God instead.  This choice gives the sane mind the strength to override the ego’s choices. Thus one can indulge in the delicious chocolates in life without it becoming an addiction.

The Holy Spirit respects life and works diligently for me in passing learning and awareness into your consciousness.  In releasing fear you allow love, which breaks down walls and barriers.  Do you fear what is behind these barriers?  Of course, ego would insist on it.  For as long there is fear we hesitate to look inside that room or enter that door, thus the Holy Instant will be delayed.  Ego will lie and seek to convince you that God, the monstrous demon will burn you or strike you blind when you surrender into this place.

Yet are you not an extension of me?  If so then this is not a room in the devil’s playground, but a room in my house, the body I set you in.  All that will be found is a frightened, sad, and lonely child who looks with a vulnerable heart saying, “I have been waiting alone so long, why did no one find me sooner?” This is the Ego’s delight for now there are feelings of guilt, remorse and self-condemnation for abandoning this young place within.  Ego will try to stop this revelation even now suggesting this child, this piece of you will now attack upon entry.  This insanity is the voice of Ego.

This is the place where The Holy Spirit must be asked to look at this lost child and say, “I know you’ve been alone and scared for so very long.  I am here now so leave this hell.”  Only you can close the door of your heart, and forever have I been gently knocking.  I know there is fear in you for this is the absence of love, and your survival instincts led you to hide.  Never have I judged anyone. Only individuals driven by their ego mind will judge themselves.

WHY DO I FEEL SUCH FEAR AROUND TEACHING?

Channeling #29

Karen:

Why do I feel such fear around teaching?

GOD:

A teacher stands in front of the class for all to see and you fear being seen.   When living in fear the natural order is to attract, so when fear arrives and sees an open wound, by its very nature, it must hurl a spear into it.  When persisting along a teaching path, you must be aware of this sabotage your ego has created.  Upon overcoming it through recognition of your emergence into greatness, this gift will provide great joy and make the path swift and light.

Having attained this powerful light, grasping ones will always be there to steal it for their own.  Holding the Light means holding it in such a way as to preserve its sacred truth. There will always be those who will appear to hold you down and appear to hold you back until you step out of your self-inflicted prison and see that only you can block your path, you restrict yourself and that the only jailer present is you.

Rejoice in these new endeavours for they have long been a part of my plans to train and prepare you.  You choose not to believe and to forget the faith that others have in you because you forget time and again to truly look upon yourself. By not shining the Light of Love upon your personal wounds intensely or often enough, it has not become apparent who you really are. In this situation you cannot expect others to see. I ask you to be brave and take one final trip into the cold, dark place to rescue the one who huddles there before she perishes.  You must not let this aspect of yourself go unattended, for she will resurface in your next life until dealt with.

          She is begging for my light to be shone into the deepest caverns - delivering her forth from the cold. Just as the flower turns its face to seek the sunlight, so I ask you now to direct the light inward to open the darkness.  This lost child within has great gifts for you to share, for her soft heart and soul are the foundation of the innocence that wants to share.  Treat her well and nourish her, for she is the teacher.

IT IS A WISE THING TO STAY IN YOUR HEART

Channeling #28

Question:

May I have a quick thought for this day?

GOD:

It is a wise thing to stay in your heart, thinking and speaking through it. But remember only when you are touching someone to allow me to touch them through you.

Life can be hard and frustrating on the human psyche. It is not an individual’s ability to love everyone but it is your responsibility to try. And when it seems impossible, this is when you allow me to do the loving for you by extending my feelings through your heart.  To accomplish this, your heart must remain constantly open. Don’t be disappointed when at any given moment, there will be those not ready to receive this love.  This must be respected as the individual’s journey towards receiving – simply commit to loving them in silence from your inner altar and through prayers.

You need not judge your ability to love others on those days when you would gladly poke them in the eye, simply love them through my strength. When you know that you do not have it, then it is only your responsibility to ask for it. I do not ask you to love everyone; I ask you to ask me to help you love everyone.  In this way your resources, energy and purity will be conserved while still enabling my great work to be done.

HOW SHOULD I HANDLE MY DIFFICULTY WITH AUTHORITY?

Channeling #27

Question:

How should I handle my difficulty with authority?

GOD:

Have patience and compassion with regards to your value and the level you’re at in life, for you were conditioned to be disillusioned and unclear in your formative years. When you look back you will see where your fear of authority came from and your lesson has been to transform this into becoming your own authority.  Your thoughts are often judgments on how you are not supporting yourself and you project this onto the prominent and dominant figure that your inner child seeks parenting from. As long as you hold judgment around anyone in this regard, you are in error, for you are no longer that child. The inner child within all of my creations, wishes for the loving, nourishing arms and open heart of mother.

             See where the authority issue is a reflection of where you seek to be authoritative, and when someone appears to push you – you are both in a struggle for control yet you are both simply answering the heart's yearning for love. But love, when demanded from an external source and not allowed from true source is not love, but a bargain that has been struck.

The ego never dies so it must be recognized, made accountable for its bad behaviour and lovingly rocked back to the place in the heart place where love can give it a new job description.  When anyone knocks at the door of a heart that has been hurt, the shield that guards the inner fortress interprets attack and its protection intensifies. Often this gate is so reinforced that love cannot enter in.

 Christ says, that he knocks gently on the door of our heart, which is the protective pericardium, for then it feels safe enough to open out into the multi-petaled lotus flower. Then can we glimpse the terrified child that the ego would starve to death and we are granted access that we might feed the heart.

The heart is the asylum and sanctuary of the wounded one, and the gifted one. Allowing access will heal, fulfill and integrate you. Softening the heart is feared to be a painful process. It is not. It is the wonder in a baby's eyes, the magic of a dragonfly, the sweetness of a hummingbird, the passion of fire, the gasp of a falling star, and the beauty of an unfolding flower. It is the mist on the moor, the gentle wave lapping at your feet, the glimpse of eternity and the wonder of who you are. Feel this process and fall into it, for within the sacred space of your own heart, lies your true salvation, the voice of the Holy Spirit.

HOW DO I HANDLE MY EGO?

Channeling #26

Question:

How do I handle my ego?

GOD:

Ego is nothing more than the shield of an over-zealous soldier, for behind him hides a frightened child.  You must watch without judgment how it plays the game of seduction while observing and noting its crazy antics.  Then give love and direction to yourself without punishment, as this will teach where further healing must still be done.  If you fail in this, you become the attacker of yourself. You are loved and are becoming known.  Never doubt your worth as I value you.  Relax and be guided for I have left my markers and signposts along your pathway.  These are sent to cushion the road and keep you safe.

It is good to occasionally fast to release toxic emotions, for they remain deep in the tissue memory if there is no cleansing.  This is a test of your strength of spirit to back away from negative influences, which deplete your energy stores.  Be at one with me and at peace with WHO you are, for too long have you lived in self-judgment.

I am most happy with your progress thus far working through difficult tests.  Do not be angry with me, as I have made you perfect while refining you through teaching and testing.  Now live and love beyond the confines of your shadow.  You must allow your soul its rest, yet I require you to stay where my light can be found.  You have muffled true voice and padded true nature for too long.  This does not serve either of us. 

I feel great joy at your patience for you never gave up.  This was required work on your part, but the testing is finished so your regard of life as a constant test must also cease.  This is where ego would fool you.  Play now and relax, find the child within and reside in your heart.  Love, rest and do not perceive others to be judging you either as this would only be in accordance with a distorted view that you created for yourself.

The time for hardness is long past - so be soft.  Be kind to all, especially to yourself.

RELATIONSHIP SEEMS TO ESCAPE ME AND I FEEL ALONE

Channeling #25

Question:

Relationship seems to escape me and I feel alone.

GOD:

Nothing feels so alone as a soul that has lost alignment with the divine.  Much can be said about alignment, as it is fundamental for interconnection of all your parts.  Yes, you were fractured; therefore this journey was chosen to promote strength and integration while becoming whole.  The journey has taken its toll so more rest is required.  Life should be enjoyed and not taken so seriously.

You appear serious and deep while giving the impression of being The Ice Queen, but actually emotions run deep and strong fuelled by a passion that has all but been forgotten.  These are trying times but take heart for I have revealed you are being tested while being protected at the same time.  Remember I provide safety while leading you to another of your own kind.  He must be selected by me so as to understand your sensitivities.  Fear not as his dark side was severely tested and brought into the light.  What matters, is that his heart must strong and his touch genuine.  There is not much to do but wait while we prepare him so you will be his match on many levels then.  There are few who understand you but that is of no consequence.  You need not judge if who you are is enough since contained within is the good of many lifetimes.

Seeing such distress saddens me, but I ask only to remember who you are and from whence you came.  Your journey has been long and your body has been uncomfortable to live in; but your efforts have been sufficient to sustain those times where most would have quit, lost their way and perished.  He will have large and gentle hands, a ready smile and be a silent one.

Respond with feminine softness and be patient. Let him see you blush and hesitate to trust, but clearly show your strength of conviction regarding what you will and will not stand for.  He will respect that as he does you.   The one you can be yourself with is coming and it will be easy, warm and gentle.  You will see, with the right one, it is not hard.

IT OFTEN FEELS THAT I PAY A VERY HIGH PRICE FOR MY LIFE

Channeling #24

Question: I feel empty and hollow and it is a vulnerable and angry place. It often feels that I am paying a very high price for my life.

GOD:  During these times take yourself in to the depth of that stored despair and remember that it is just that - storage. And remember also that it is your ego’s closet, not yours. Your ego has posted your name on the door, it looks like your stuff, but this is a lie aimed at keeping you from finding your truth and jumping into the light and healing. Like cleaning out your closet – you examine each scrap of evidence to determine if it has fulfilled its value to you and if it is time to let it go. But you cannot see that the evidence itself is merely a ploy to distract you from true healing. The more time you spend on this useless evidence, the more your ego likes it.

You must not weep over each article or feel resentment or remorse. You need only calmly determine its value as a lesson to you and discard it.  In this I mean to give it up, not to place it somewhere for safe keeping in case you choose to dig it up and use it to punish yourself yet again.  It may be familiar and you no longer use it, yet still do you have difficulty letting go. This belief in a need for an external identity is a misperception in humans. It takes courage to let go of what you think defines you.

You have chosen to believe that you are losing something instead of seeing that your soul has decided to pull up anchor and sail to a more beautiful harbor. I have created many beautiful inner harbors within you and I know that you long to sail there. You need not struggle to do this – for only in allowing the winds of God and the currents of Destiny to take you will you reach your true destination.

You felt as if many of the ports you sailed into had robbed you and left you emotionally bankrupt. You could not see that you are the jewel and what you have can never stolen, but only polished and made more precious. And have I not always deposited more into your grace bank account? Your overdraft with me is limitless, yet you hoard your perceived meagre funds in fear of a barren time. There will not be one; believe in me and surrender, in every minute if need be, for I am providing you with all that you require in this lifetime.

WHAT CAUSED MY ANGER AND DISILLUSIONMENT ABOUT RELATIONSHIP?

Channeling #23

Question:

I am angry and disillusioned about relationship. I’ve tried to be a good person and feel that I should deserve a wonderful relationship.  What happened to cause this mistrust?

GOD:

Deep in the memory files of Family History lies the core belief that the young girls are the property of the authority figures. Instead of protecting and cherishing the young girl, she was traumatized by this dangerous place and left frightened and mistrustful. She wanted to return home, only was too weak for the journey and truly – where was home? It was no place that she had known!  No matter which path she chose, there was no one there to provide support and safety or to provide illumination from her darkness.

How can one trust when the leaders and caregivers do not demonstrate what it looks like? Trust must not just be earned, first it must be learned.

When a soul chooses a very difficult incarnation it is evidence that a healer is being moulded and great care must be taken to not misinterpret what surrounding events unfold. It is not personal, it is the deepest form of schooling, it is the phoenix rising from the ashes if you would seek to find the jewel and not believe that the ashes are your life.

Summon your spirit home through candlelight rituals and seek atonement, for many are the things that have been held against me and an innocent child.  Cast out these memories. Write them on paper and burn them as they have burned you.  There can be no softness in this regard as you must bring death to this haunting illusion that portrayed something permanent was done to you. The only thing that is permanent is my Love and your soul.

When you look back, this illusion only causes pain - therefore only look forward to let it die.

Something did happen and it was a lesson to be learned.  It appeared something was done to your body, but nothing to YOU.  This will be over once you lay it to rest on the altar of forgetfulness that resides within your heart.  This altar may not be approached idly, offhandedly, or irreverently but only with forgiveness, humility and complete surrender. 

This is the hardest thing for my children to do yet only when you do this, can my God part of you step in and make your life flow easily.

There is a door to my heart, yet the name on the door is YOURS!

When you trust me - you will trust yourself and this is how trust is learned. Do this, and your relationship with yourself will heal. Do this and all of your relationships will be wonderful ones.

WHY ARE WE TOO BLIND TO SEE WHERE OUR ENERGY BLOCKS COME FROM?

Channeling #22

Amahra:

Gayle wants to know what’s causing her energy blocks and also what energies must come through now.

GOD:

All of your apparent blocks are one single underlying block.  It is an ego-constructed divider between you and the truth. Understand that you have been utilizing your blind eyes as protection against pain and death.  Why do you continue to follow the blind one along this path, stumbling on rocks of fear long past? Know that this fear cannot reach forward in time to touch you in the now.  Everyone’s physical body will die, but yours died the death of betrayal in a past life and I tell you it will not die this death again.  That lesson need only be learned once, but your choosing to wear it for a shield is the only thing that keeps it alive in your present life.  The energy that must come forth now is your identity as a powerful seer, a warrior from past times who forged through fear, pushed past enemy lines and risked death in service to his king.  Now you must learn to not charge through and pierce with a bloodied lance, but transform these seeming battles into learning opportunities through using your Magician’s Wand.  Meditate on the Taro Deck’s Magician card. See how his rod points to the ground for he understands this wand is a rod of passage - moving and integrating Divine Energy into the mundane realms of your earthly creation.

Look into the Triple Warmer and Heart Protector in your body’s energy system, as this multi-faceted lotus that nurtures your heart is much stronger than you perceived.  Give up your childish fears, confusion and your questioning why you have not arrived yet. I tell you that there is no yet.  You are there already because it is where you are. The fact that you cannot see this does not mean that it’s not there, but does mean that you are looking in the wrong places for it. You chose your journey and you are the destination.  Already you are doing that for which you were sent, but you underestimate yourself. Your pain is created through judging that you need be somewhere else. The ego loves to play this game with you. Your ego mind would keep you from seeing that you are standing there now, claiming what is yours and setting up shop. Make space for your spirit guide as she is cramped in your place of disbelief and requires more of your headroom. How do you know that the great pain you feel is not her broken heart resulting from your lack of believing in her. Her mental grid has not been freed to guide you, so trust and free it now.

I do not support your fear for it does not exist in Heaven. Ask me to help you see that your fear is not real and develop compassionate for yourself.  You are supported but must claim your space and understand that your place in humanity depends upon the obedience of your boundless spirit.

WHERE HAS MY OPEN & INNOCENT CHILD GONE?

Channeling #21

Amahra:

Why must I push so hard to find the open, innocent little child I used to be?

GOD:

Through your time of healing, you are remembering those jagged places that are still raw. When you push, you touch them too harshly, so they bleed. Touch them softly.

The delicate inner child is close but why should she trust when each poke strikes another portal that opens realms of pain, sadness and dashed hopes and dreams?  She was shocked beyond breath and too shy and frightened to ask for help. Therefore she was always left alone to deal with cuts no one else could see.

As painful as this lesson is, it is the perfect training ground for learning how to heal, be self-sufficient and find inner strength. It taught you what you innately needed to know to help others.

Learn to love this place for it is the foundation stone for what you are and were always meant to be.  A wound always heals with love but unfortunately, love for you equalled the disillusions of sadness, of apologies, manipulation and abandonment.

Keep seeking the truth for in doing so you give these feelings their rightful voice.  A major key shall replace minor keys given voice thus far in the symphony of your Soul.  This Divine Key of Joy will unlock you and subsequently the souls and hearts of those around you.

Take heart literally and learn to swallow your pride when speaking from this beautifully wounded, honest and tearful place. For this place is beyond the games, coping mechanisms, masks and false beliefs and it will bring great returns.  Be gentle with yourself as this starts to easily slide over you like a second skin and becomes the new way of being, a true way of being you.

WHERE IS YOUR SOUL PLAYING?

Channeling #20

Amahra:

My client was desperate to heal – Yet I noticed that the greater part of her was somewhere else.  She is afraid to die, but also afraid to live.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      

GOD:

Fear is a construct of ego mind. It does not exist in heaven. The ego is the jaws of living death, which most people spend their lives in.  You desire to truly live but are too afraid to take the leap of faith required.  To move past this crippling illusion, shouting into the void is required.  Shouting commands your spirit to return from fearful, ego, judgment, and wounded places. This is illustrated by my son, the Christ, driving the “con men” from the temple.  Now it is time to arise and take a stand for what provides sustenance; not your ego or the frightened child, but a passionate place of the wounded warrior crying, “This will not happen again, I will not allow it!” For I will tell you – you need not make demands of me, for I freely give, but you must make demands of your spirit, by demanding it return from the futile places it has been playing in.

So it is not enough to call, as your spirit must be summoned.  Calls simply go out, but summons are calls commanding responses.  Obedience is a soul’s key word, without which it would wander off to places that destroy, weaken, and seduce you.  When your soul tarries too long in these illusionary places, you are left in a weakened state and an alternate reality.

You cry out for energy and light all the while forgetting you are light.  You must stop rummaging through your old hope chest; looking in old crevices of lost dreams, disillusionment, and pervading future hopes that you have insufficient power to create because of past energy drains.  You need only stand centred in your universe and command your spirit’s return.  Know that my answer is there for all of your ego’s exhausting, useless and distracting questions. For when YOU struggle to solve or listen to them, they waste your time and energy.  The ego has designed them for precisely this purpose, to keep you from healing. My answer for ALL of these questions? The circumstances that created them, are not real, but only your distorted images projected outward.  Do not feel lost concerning where your soul has been; for as an obedient servant recognizes his master’s voice and comes, your soul need only hear my voice to return.  This must be obeyed, for you can never truly know life, if part of your soul is missing.

Do not tarry in calling back what is missing. Be not afraid but joyful, for you are the centre of my universe.