WHAT'S BEHIND MY FEAR/SABOTAGE BEHAVIOR IN RELATIONSHIP?

CHANNELING #39

L.S. asks:

What's behind my fear/sabotage 

behavior in Relationship?”

A woman often worries more about the broken heart of another than she does her own. Try to remember that likely your partner’s heart came already broken and repaired many times over as well. Like the be-headed Celtic Green Man – the symbolic regeneration of your injured part is a testimony to man’s acceptance of life, birth, death and pain. Man understands these all too well, more than I hoped he would. So often the droplets of learning, like pearls, run off your skin and the opportunity for healing does not penetrate your defenses.

Like an actor learning to know his character, you’ve spent much of your life’s rehearsal time crafting and presenting an illusionary self to attract and impress the opposite sex in belief that your true self is inadequate. The men in your life have been your greatest teachers and if you are to move forward you must realise that you keep making the teachers I send you the authors of your pain. 

Your frightened mind must find the place of forgiveness. You must ask for me to restock the faith in your grace bank account in order that you might have the strength to stay sane and see where you have yet to heal. You have handed over control of this bank account to your ego mind and it makes countless withdrawals from these precious reserves without your permission or knowledge. This leaves you overdrawn and confused. I ask you now to relinquish this insanity and let me administer this account for you. Your ego cannot accurately perceive your present as your ego is your past. Simply put, the ego is:

                                                         P…projected

                                                         A…aspects of

                                                         S…self’s

                                                         T…trauma

That which stands between you and instant healing is the ego’s memory of your past. The most terrifying of your thoughts – is but an insane creation of your own ego mind and while it knows the truth, it seeks only to sabotage. Men have been many things to you – some you know and some things you are yet to discover. But wherever someone triggers you to react emotionally, there is a truth for you to discover about your own need to heal. A healed mind does not see attack from anyone for it is beyond their perception. But only be sure that you learn your part well. Be thankful for I sent man to show you the battles you fought endlessly with your inner masculine self.

If you will remember that the war is over you will no longer see your teachers as your enemies. Your torment will end when you choose to see. The lessons of your God mind are gentle, the lessons of the heart are joyful and real. The lessons of the ego mind are like jagged rocks upon which the weary bird seeks shelter. The bird is tired of flying, but fears that its feet will be hurt when it lands.

Remember to transmute energy, to send love and take away fear for where you resist, is where you deny yourself.  It is my wish that you be healed and you let go of the illusions that you built around yourself regarding relationship. I want you to have clarity to prepare you for your path ahead.